“Pain can be endured and defeated only if it is embraced. Denied or feared, it grows.” -Dean Koontz
For the past month and a half, I have been experiencing some of the worst pain I have felt in the four years I have been battling this beast called chronic pain. During this time, I have experienced first hand what it means to truly not see a light at the end of the tunnel. Because I could not think clearly, I felt like a mindless drone, spending day after day in intense pain, most of those days spent in bed, trying to rest through the barrage of attacks on my entire body.
My very loving mother tried her best to find something that would give me just enough relief to actually function, but with every supplement I tried, my pain only intensified. That is when we learned that I am what is called a universal reactor, which means that my nerves are so heightened in pain that any medication I try just gets immediately rejected, increasing my pain and causing me to have surges of high and agonizing pain across my body for a brief few minutes, just enough to zap me of all my energy.
In short, my life for the past six weeks has been hell. However, this point in time has also been enlightening for me because it has shown me how truly easy it is to fall into that pit of despair and cling to the darkness because we cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel.
During my six weeks of agony, there was a post on one of the chronic pain groups I follow and the person asked this question.
“How can you get used to pain?”
This got me thinking. No is an easy answer for those who do not experience pain on a daily basis, but can all of us with chronic pain really say yes? Do we truly ever get used to our pain?
This month, I want to share with you some ways that I and others have found to cope with pain because, coming from experience, there is more to your life than just 24/7 pain. There is light at the end of this tunnel. You just have to be willing to look up and see it.